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  2005 and 2006 were really hard for me.   I had been suffering from moderate depression for a few years at that point.   I had tried different medications and went to therapy but I was still struggling.   Outwardly things were going really well.   I was in a relationship with a good man, I was working and getting promoted quickly, and I was a youth leader at the church I was heavily involved in before moving away.   My psychiatrist suggested that I try a newer medicine called Cymbalta.   It worked differently than a typical antidepressant by controlling norepinephrine in addition to serotonin.   I figured it was worth a shot. Over the next few months as the medicine took effect I noticed a change in my personality.   It was subtle at first and likely looked like my depression was lifting.   But I started behaving erratically.   I spent $500 on baby clothes for a friend and some family members who were expecting little ones, despite the fact that I couldn’t really cover my bills.